Fitting In

When I was growing up I often felt like I didn't fit, I would try to change myself to fit in but never really found my place. This often left me feeling quite alone.  I would like to say that since I found God in my life I never feel like that anymore. But the truth is, I do. 

It seems that sometimes I feel like I am the last person people think of when it comes to inviting people places. There have been a lot of events going on (weddings etc) around me at church of the past year and I have been invited to very few of them. Admittedly, most of them I understand that I'm not close friends with those involved however,  there are some where I have felt a little bit left out. Why was I not invited? 

I wonder why it is we feel the need to belong, and wanted. And why are some people the type that get invited everywhere and others don't. Why do some seem to have hundreds of friends and some have little? I can't answer that question, and although I used to want the answers, I don't need to anymore. 

I've come to realise that just because one person has more friends than another, doesn't mean one person is a "nicer" person that the other. I've come to believe that God places people in our lives where we need them. He has given us each gifts which may appear to attract more people. I'm not sure why, I don't really have all the answers at all, it's something I'm still discovering I guess, and as I discover more, I become more comfortable with the person that I am and the friends I have.

The biggest thing we need to be aware of in situations where we feel like we don't belong, or we feel lonely is how we react to these feelings. Reacting poorly by whinging and feeling sorry for ourselves, is not going to make us feel better, and it's not going to make people want to spend more time with us. In stead of focusing on what we think we are missing out on, we need to focus on what we do have. Now for me on those days when I feel like I have no friends, I just laugh at myself and think about all friends I do have. And one of my best friends, who is Jesus. The bible says in  Hebrews 13:5 that God will never leave us and never forsake us. Even when we feel alone, we aren't alone.

Thankful for: The strange workings of our bodies

Ok yes, it's another weird one. Maybe one of the weirdest ones. But I was just thinking how amazing our bodies are. How everything works. The brain sending signals to everything else, the heart pumping blood, our lungs helping us breath. If something fails, well our bodies fail. It's all very amazing, but I'm thankful that everything works together. I'm also thankful that when we feel ill our bodies know how to deal with it and fight it, which is what mine is doing right now. Without the strange workings of our bodies, who knows what we would be like. So I'm thanking God for how he has put us all together.