At The Foot Of The Cross

At The Foot Of The Cross - Kari Jobe & Klaus

 

At the foot of the cross
Where grace and suffering meetYou have shown me Your love
Through the judgment You received

And You've won my heartYes You've won my heart
Now I can

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

At the foot of the cross
Where I am made complete
You have given me life
Through the death You bore for me

I lay every burden down
I lay every burden down

This song was originally sung by Kathryn Scott I think, but I have used the Kari Jobe version because I love her voice, it's beautiful. 

 

Why have I chosen to put this song in my blog tonight???

At church our pastor spoke about laying everything down and surrendering completely and wholey to God. Then at the end we were given the opportunity to respond. And there are times when I know that I have to respond. Tonight was one of those times. I usually find myself fighting it, my legs begin to shake, it's like something tries to stop me. I'd say that's the enemy trying to hold me back because he knows if I respond, I'm giving more of me to God and he loses again. So tonight, I responded. 

It's quite interesting because throughout the entire service, I felt somewhat distracted. I was tired, and almost felt like turning around and going back home... but something kept me there. During praise and worship, I didn't feel like I was really "part" of it like I usually am, but I pushed through. Then through the sermon, my mind kept wandering but I stayed and kept pulling myself back in focus. It's times like this you know that God wants to do something through you and the enemy is doing everything he can to stop that from happening. Thankfully for me, God won. Of course, He is stronger than the devil but sometimes, if we don't push through ourselves, the devil wins... we can sometimes let the distraction win. 

And now I'm getting into a moment of honesty, something that I don't think I have dealt with properly which is why God put it on my heart tonight. There is someone at church who I find myself attracted to, and sometimes I think I let that attraction take up too much of my attention. Tonight was one of those nights, and honestly that is one of the main things that was the distraction today. As I sat listening to the sermon, I found myself glancing over to see what he was doing. Why? I don't know. I do not want to find myself falling into the "lust" trap, but I'm afraid that I may have allowed it. And the way that I have let this happen is by not fully trusting God with my heart.

So what does the bible tell us about lust?

"But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart." (Matthew 5:28)

^"Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry." (Colossians 3:5)

^"For everything in the world—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—comes not from the Father but from the world." (1 John 2:16)

Basically, lust is not something which comes from God, and it is from the devil. If I let the devil take a hold of just this small part of me, and I allow lust to become a part of my life, it wont be long before I let him take more. So I want to be able to put a stop to it right away. And how do I do that? Well I hope that today has been the beginning of it. I knelt down at the front of church, and I lay everything down at the cross. I give my whole heart to God, I trust that He knows best, He knows what I want and what I need, and when the time is right, He will place the man that was meant for me in my life. It's going to also take constant prayer from myself to not allow the devil to get hold of me again, and also an every day dedication of my complete and whole heart to the Lord. I can't just think that I've dealt with it and will forget about it, sometimes things just aren't that easy. 

So back to the song... what made me then go and post that song. It's singing about at the foot of the cross, laying down burdens, and giving Him your whole heart. It speaks of being made complete at the foot of the cross. That is what I feel like I've done tonight. I love these lyrics, "I'll trade these ashes in for beauty". I feel like in my case the ashes are the crumbled up parts of my heart, He has taken them away and given me a complete and whole heart, one that He will look after, one that I do not need to try and complete myself because He has it in His hands, there is nothing that I can do to make it feel more complete, He completes it. He took the ugliness from my heart, and replaced it with beauty. If you haven't listened to it already, go and listen. It really is beautiful and is a great song to just kneel and Jesus' feet and pour all you have out to Him, all your burdens, all your worries, He will take them, and replace them with beauty. 

Thankful for: Tears

It's another one of those strange ones. Why am I thankful for tears? Because I think at times we just need them. I'm not sure I have anything else to say about it other than that.